Senior Year: Half Way

I have officially completed a semester of my senior year! It is so crazy that I only have 147 days left  before I am a high school graduate. I have spent most of this semester putting together college applications, scholarship applications and keeping my grades up. People were not kidding when they said that it would move super  quick . I am still trying to realize that I am half way through.

So far this year, I have learned so many things about myself, what I want out of life and how to grow up. Its been strange to be in this position as I have gone to pep rallys, football games, college presentations and many other school events. As I have played in orchestra concerts I’ve realized that they were my last ones, that it is all almost over. It doesn’t really hit me as I go each day but sometimes I will be sitting in a class and realize that this, my little world, is about to end as I move onto adulthood . Everything I know is shifting and growing with me. It is very weird.

Am I a fan of high school? No way, but there are some things I know are going to be hard to say goodbye to.  I love my friends so much and don’t want them to leave, but some are leaving out of state for school, others on missions but I will be here in Arizona. As for school itself, the only class I know I will miss is orchestra. To have been under the instruction of such an amazing teacher has been such a blessing.  Though I am going into a music field, it still wont be the same. I am going to miss that class a lot.

It’s a little difficult to think about life a year from now because I don’t want to accept the fact that I have to confront change. I HATE change. Change causes me a lot of stress and worry because I am the type of person who needs a plan.  When I deal with change, my plans usually hit the garbage. All the things I thought would happen are now altered or deleted. Life is funny that way.

Next semester is going to be an interesting whirlwind full of  endings , preparation and new beginnings but I am so ready for it. Though I am completely terrified of growing up, I can’t wait to see what is in store for me over the course of the last 18 weeks of high school.

Bring it on.

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One comment

  1. Josh · December 28

    That feeling is starting to hit me too. I’m a junior in high school, but almost half of my friends are all seniors, and just seeing everyone growing up and getting accepted into colleges is making me a little nervous for the future too. At my school, only about 3-5 of our class of 60+ stay in our city (Las Vegas) for college, so it’s kind of comforting that we’ll all be going to different schools and that our social lives won’t continue without us.

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