Unfortunately , no one is immune to trials.It is a part of life that we all agreed to before we came to this world and its something that can’t be taken away. I have found as I have faced trials that there is a reason behind everything. I don’t always see it, but there’s something that will strengthen me in each situation.
The past few weeks have been very rough. I have stumbled and fallen as I have been pressed upon. One night, I found myself on my knees, a sobbing mess, pleading with my father in heaven. The sobbing was so intense, I could barley utter a word and took about 25 minutes to pray for a prayer that should’ve taken 5 minutes max. I found myself pleading to God to just end this trial that I have been facing for quite sometime. I was so discouraged. I have come to terms with the fact that this specific trial is here to make me stronger but it exhausts me. On this specific night, I couldn’t help but feel a bit angry towards my father in heaven . I have pleaded so many times for this burden to be lightened but it seems like its just gotten heavier. Then, I was reminded that when Christ was in Gethsemane , he pleaded for relief, but what he went through needed to be done. Christ went through his trial so he could know what mine would feel like and how to heal me. I am being molded for something greater an I shouldn’t be angry about it. I should be rejoicing. Just because it isn’t getting easy, doesn’t mean I’m alone or unloved. There is so much more than the now.
What’s so fantastic about my trials is that I am starting to see them as building blocks for my testimony. I am able to draw closer to my savior as I push through the darkness. The light is him and his gospel. Do I wish I could learn these principles another way? Absolutely, but luckily , I have come to realize that the lord has a certain path that I need in order to grow. Finding that light isn’t always easy but as I have clung to it, I have found how to make the best out of my trials. There is always an opportunity to turn to him. I can always rely on him to be my guide and comforter and that’s what brings the light to clear the mist of darkness.